CCK09- Back on track after finding anchors

Hearing that I´m not the nly one who´s overwhelmed by personal and professional issues within the CCK09 community has encouraged me to get myself together and find a moment to think.

I´ve been silent for a while and I find the crucial factor in my self-silencing process is the inhibiting and repressing power of self-consciousness. After not actively participating for a while there started to be a growing wall that made it harder for me to connect and I had a hard time overcoming. My connections felt diluted and it became difficult to “open my mouth” in front of people who had smartly kept evolving through the course.

I wanted to go on, but I saw myself  wandering about, lacking nodes, lacking anchors. And then Nicola published a most inspiring post explaining how she´s been handling her connectivity being reduced to her mobile phone. Right after that Luz wrote a post about how she felt lost and was founding her way back into the course with Eduardo´s help. I thanked them both for the inspiration and Nicola told me a delightful story on how a student from CCK08 felt “virtually disabled” at some point. I understood and liked the analogy very much. I was suddenly interacting again and it felt easier to get back on track.

So Luz and Nicola have managed to engage me back in, when I felt I was falling out. Listening to them explain their efforts and struggle through the course and their motivation to continue  has been a pull I very much needed. Their openness and transparency about it unleashed a stream of empathy with these two participants, a stream which dragged me into Moodle again. I needed an anchor, and they became mine.

This post sounds a lot like group therapy.

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